As I move all of are stuff off the truck and in to are new home, washing all the walls and clean every little corner I find more and more of the stuff that I don’t want. All I keep finding is more of the things I could care less about.
As I search throw more and more of the boxes looking for the things that are missing, I find more and more stuff but not what I look for. I may have my parents one door down and I don’t even want them I have my cats and ferrets but the only thing I want is you.
As some of you may know peaj is working down state for 12 days, now this 12 days I did not think would be this hard but to tell you all the truth all I want is my wife I want to do this with her, now we talk on the phone and it is hard for me to say what I want. And to sum it all up all I want is her I want her to be here with me.
I try and keep busy with cleaning seeing that the people that owned this house did not clean at all but it is not doing it. I do not even find comfort in having my parents around to help. Kaylee is in school all day and that makes it even harder, when she is here it is like having part of my wife with me but when she goes off on the bus I feel like braking down. 12 days seams like so little to get what we both want.
Peaj is now in the hospital I don’t mean working, her sugars are messed up aging and this time she did all she could. She just over did it when helping with the move, I am sure she is very lonely down there in the hospital there has not been a time when she has gone in that I have not been there. And this kills me to sit here in a house that is are and not have her with me and not even be able to be there when she needs me.
I am missing you and this will be my account for every day that I go missing you.
10.31.2006
10.11.2006
Seeing the bigger picture
Ok so have you ever looked at something and saw nothing of important? Well I have more then enough times in my life, but this time I am seeing the bigger picture.
Ok this is how it is going to go step one oh wait that’s not it.
All of the peaces of this puzzle are coming together and they are all falling in place so nice it is scary. The goal of this hole thing was a better life for us and we are well on are way to doing it.
We needed only 3 things a house done and a job for the wife done and a date in wich the bank would fork over the money done. So the things we have to do until the 27 well lets see pack every dame thing we have reserve a truck, get insurance on the house, switch phones from here to there, eclectic also. Other things well there is a long list of things move van from here to there make sure every thing is good to get are deposit back form the land lord and about a billion other things along the way.
Sound fun well so far it has been a head ache why well I did not have the all important date, I never new so much could rely on one little thing well getting the last puzzle peace was nice it also brings about many more things to get done.
Ok this is how it is going to go step one oh wait that’s not it.
All of the peaces of this puzzle are coming together and they are all falling in place so nice it is scary. The goal of this hole thing was a better life for us and we are well on are way to doing it.
We needed only 3 things a house done and a job for the wife done and a date in wich the bank would fork over the money done. So the things we have to do until the 27 well lets see pack every dame thing we have reserve a truck, get insurance on the house, switch phones from here to there, eclectic also. Other things well there is a long list of things move van from here to there make sure every thing is good to get are deposit back form the land lord and about a billion other things along the way.
Sound fun well so far it has been a head ache why well I did not have the all important date, I never new so much could rely on one little thing well getting the last puzzle peace was nice it also brings about many more things to get done.
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