A over all fun week end

Well all thow peaj worked, and was missed greatly. Me and kaylee had lots of fun. Around a hour or so I thought her how to play dominoes. Now I did not think she would really get it but not only did she get it she kicked my but a few times. She loves the game and wanted mommy to play something bad. So to day mommy came home and we played. Now we played to 250 and I won but kaylee was in 2ed almost the hole time. But finished in last by only 20 points. So over all the week end was nice. Lets home the week is this nice.


and for all those that don't under stand dominoes is a game of counting so go Here to check it out. Not just set them up and knock them over, there is much much more to it...


Here is to hoping..........

A little news for all

Ok so I really needed to do some cleaning up on this page. So that is what I did. I have added a new link for Ferret fun, it is my page and I will try and up date it as often as possible. Hope you all in joy.

this just sounded good to me at the time..

I'm all freaked out
I'm all tweaked out
I'm being chased by insects
And I wanna eat my cigarettes
I can't hang out
I'm all strung out
I've got to grab me by the throat
I've got to herd me like a goat

A cigarette is all you get
So hold your fire, don't light it yet

I'm all mixed up
I gotta fix me up
I wanna pull my tongue out
And turn my nostrils inside out
I'm all dried up
I'm all fried up
I wanna burn things now and then
If I've been talkin' to businessmen

A cigarette is all you get
So hold your fire, don't light it yet

I'm all shook up
I wanna get hooked up
I wanna listen to Elvis
I wanna shake my pelvis
I wanna take the train downtown
I wanna hear some Junior Brown
I wanna move my groovy hips
I wanna bite my shaky lips

A cigarette is all you get
So hold your fire, don't light it yet





this is Crash Test Dummes just for thoues that might not know

Just another day...

ver feel you need a good stiff drink to help you throw the day. Well I do not feel that way to day but what I could go for is a nice cold beer. Now you may ask your self why that I may feel this way. Well I will let you in on the secret, no reason what so ever. Well after a long night of the kid wakening me at 11 something to," daddy I am really sorry". Well she was not feeling so good and kind of could not make it to the bathroom, let me rephrase that she made it just not all of it made it in the can. It was so bad that I had to put her in the shower. Now I kind of get worried when the little one gets sick and it lasts more then a few days. She woke this morning to I feel better. So lets all hope that this is over for her.
Well the day starts going and I find my self just having one of those days were things don’t seem to fit to well. Hurray for me.

Wow what a bad day that is starting to unfold already.

Well I get a nice wake up call from the kid around 6:20 or so. She comes to the door and is winning about her tummy hurting. Well I know there is a bug going around so I ask her what kind of hurt. It just hurts so in total she is just running to the bath room about every 5 min and now is carrying a puke bucket. So needles to say she will not be going to school to day. Well needles to say now I get a sick kid. Now I can not complain to much are kid is one of the ones that is really good when she is sick she is either sick or not. There is nun of that I don’t feel good stuff. And she is really good at hitting the puck bucket. So here is to a fun day ahead……….

As I sit and listen to The String Quartet carry on with there tribute to Led Zeppelin.

I feel gilt not for something I have done or did. But for things that I have not said, there are so many that have changed the actions in which I do. In stead I still with hold the things that I should just let out. I have felt a little off and I know the one closes to me can tell that I feel this way. It is sad when you spend 2 days analyzing your self to try and finger out how you mind works, out of no were comes a flash of light over you head and you think you know.
Yes this is very vague as what is really going on in this little head of mine but for that there is a reason. The woes that hang over my head right now are more then I care to deal with. Most of you know some of the woes which I speak of, things have been getting progreisvly worse. Not to say I feel like trying to change the world just the things in which I feel I have screwed up in. one big one is I keep thinking about is the dame house in which I should have never even gotten in to. Two is they way I feel now I do not mean about the ones I love and yes I am still haply married just unhappy about life not mine as much as for were it has gone. I feel I have hit the dead end in which there is no escaping. I need something to happen that will change my point of view a little. I am not talking about finding god or something of that nature just a job or a life. At this point and time I feel trapped in the loop of life. Not really making things better or moving forward with life just looped in the same thing over and over.
By no means should any one read to deep in to this (peaj). I just feel broke at the moment and not worth a whole lot. I am still trying to get over the fact that I have worked my entire life and now I am home. Now not to say being home is not work because by fare I think I have done more work at home then any job I have ever had. But to tell you the truth I think I am missing the interaction of others. Simply put I need some one to talk to. I feel more or less cut off from life at the moment and I am not sure why.
Now I think I have put in many apps for jobs that would be worth my time. Most of the time I never hear any thing back. But the few times I have, it has been hours that I could not hold and still take care of the kid. I am at a loss for things that I can do at home and still make money. Over all I can not think of many things to do for a side job, or entertainment at this point. I could be a bagger at farmer Jews and work with the rest of the tarts during the day. Now it may be entertaining but not the kind of entertainment I am looking for. I have look at trying and put some things up on eBay, but with shipping and all it just because to hard to do this with out getting frustrated with the hole thing.
The only thing I do besides cleaning up and trying to find food for dinner any more is acquired music in witch now I have a pretty big library so if any one would like something just drop me a line and I could make ya a copy. (For a small fee) life over all has because dull I guess I am trying to say we need a change. Perhaps a change in scenery would do I am just unsure of what would help these woes.


Side not what the hell is up with the palm book that peaj left on the half wall. (Is she trying to help me find my maker?) LOL I am not sure but I think it came from the hospital. Now the question is why it is sitting on the half wall and why do you have it????????

Some kind of answer will come of this stay tuned for the conclusion.

Mean while back at the ranch!

What a messed up day.

Ok so I don’t often over all feel I sleep well. Well that is changed for some reason.
I have had two very vivid dreams as of late. One I was dreaming the kid age of 7
Or so was playing around fireworks and well I felt she was going to get hurt by
One and screamed her name fist and middle at like 3 in the morning scared the
Hell out of peaj doing so. The problem is that it felt so real I don’t mean it just
Felt real it looked real I was really terrified that she was going to get hurt my the
Dame thing.
Two was one about my wife she was cheating on me not only cheating but
Was really falling for this other person. It was kinda wired I new it was going on
But never did any thing about it till one day she came home and finally told me
That she met some one and was really in love. Now what did surprise me was that
I was hurt but I just took it with a grain of slat. We still lived to gather for a wile
And then she wanted me out. So I packed up my cloths and cds and left. I just
Left no argument I just left. Lived in my van for a wile till I found to lesbians
That I moved in with. Over all it was just weird I was not mad just hurt that it
Happened. Now also in this dream there was no site of the kid no referents to her
Or even that she existed. No it was over all real feeling and peaj was wearing sexy
Cloths and just over all did not seam to be her self. Now as far as the lesbians I
Know they were not real they were to dame hot to be. So I know most of the dream
Was fake well felt fake peaj leaving me was the real feeling part me living in my van
Was pretty real but the rest I think my brain got bored with it and started adding
Good stuff.
Now the funny thing is I do worry about kaylee a lot some time. It seams
She lacks common cents some time, what kid don’t. Now the whole cheating thing
I am not sure I do not feel she is cheating on me or with me or what ever. But the
Dream it self was not like all distorted it was like real time video or something
Every thing seamed like I woke up and bam she was there and wanted me out.
Over all kinda weird if I do say so my self.

I honestly either don’t dream or just don’t member them. But these I remember, they did seam very real. Well here is to another day of shitty ass rain and clouds. The weather around here is getting old……….

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Ok here it is the funnies for the week

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BLUE

Here are to blue days. Days in which you should not listen to R.E.M it starts to make you think way too much for some reason. You know the days that I am talking about, the ones were it is hard to get you lazy ass of the couch. To day seems to be one of thus days for me. I am not sure if it is the glum weather out side or just me. These are the days were your mind wanders a little too much.
As I try and get motivated to do something any thing at this point. I wander how much is done just to make it look like you contribute to life apposed to wanting to do something for your self. I have come to the under stand most people go to work and do there best out of fear (I did it because I liked to do it). Now that I do not get up early and head off to work I see much more then I did before( I account this to having a little more time to think.). Instead I get up with the little one and get her ready for school for her opportunity to learn all she wants. And for some little reason I feel I have failed in doing something.
Life is kinda this thing I don’t really under stand any more. What is the point to it? What should I be doing were should I be aging I keep forgetting. I am feeling just al little lost in LIFE. As I try and get my head clear of the junk in the way, I start to walk in circles to find something I have lost (you know the think you know you lost but you don’t know what it is) and all I find is me turning around for no reason. Well I am off to try and make this day more then just a day.

Ok so a little side note

Ok so Joe has turned me on to Google talk. Not bad over all. But there is only one thing Joe is the only person I know on it. So if you are Google talk let me know I need some other people to talk to no offence Joe but well you are not always on (nor am I) but for the most part I would like to know if any one besides me and Joe use Google talk?


buy the way thank you all for the happy birthday wishis.

Just a few more hours

And I will have one more birth day over. This one was not all that bad had the call from my mom and my sister wishing a happy birthday. Got a card form mom and some money. Sis just called which was cool with me. Peaj and Kaylee got me stargate sg1 season 4-5 we went out Saturday and got them. Over all it was kinda painless. Over all right now life seams slow as if something were missing form the over all equation. Not a whole lot to really say, pretty happy to have this birthday shit be gone in a few hours. To be 27 sucks and well I am sure it only goes down hill form here. I think it all started with my 18 b-day to tell ya all the truth. I wasn’t like all the other kids my parting was done by then and I guess my life started. Did not go fare stated in the same state lived with parents till I moved out with my wife to be. I guess I just gruw up a lot faster then all the people that I did hang with. For the most part I don’t ever see any of them any more here and there or I might hear something throw the grape vine that is about it. I only really kept one of the old gang around that would be Joe also the only other person to read this site. Kinda sad in the long run to loose all of the gang as I did I grow up and well it took them some more time to do so. Well happy birth day to me. Ofcorse I take the one day that you are spouse to be happy and think about all the people that I have seen and met and wonder were and what they are doing to day. Now don’t get me wrong I am not unhappy with my diction to grow kinda needed to do so, but I do hate the fact that I could not have taken a few with me. Other then the shitty birth day thing every thing around here is good commutations is a little better with the family over all.


This is for all that I have lost touch with.