As I move all of are stuff off the truck and in to are new home, washing all the walls and clean every little corner I find more and more of the stuff that I don’t want. All I keep finding is more of the things I could care less about.
As I search throw more and more of the boxes looking for the things that are missing, I find more and more stuff but not what I look for. I may have my parents one door down and I don’t even want them I have my cats and ferrets but the only thing I want is you.
As some of you may know peaj is working down state for 12 days, now this 12 days I did not think would be this hard but to tell you all the truth all I want is my wife I want to do this with her, now we talk on the phone and it is hard for me to say what I want. And to sum it all up all I want is her I want her to be here with me.
I try and keep busy with cleaning seeing that the people that owned this house did not clean at all but it is not doing it. I do not even find comfort in having my parents around to help. Kaylee is in school all day and that makes it even harder, when she is here it is like having part of my wife with me but when she goes off on the bus I feel like braking down. 12 days seams like so little to get what we both want.
Peaj is now in the hospital I don’t mean working, her sugars are messed up aging and this time she did all she could. She just over did it when helping with the move, I am sure she is very lonely down there in the hospital there has not been a time when she has gone in that I have not been there. And this kills me to sit here in a house that is are and not have her with me and not even be able to be there when she needs me.
I am missing you and this will be my account for every day that I go missing you.
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