the devil in laced up red heals

like a old friend that was never friendly , a relationship that was old and wore out after you met. sleep was always a problem racing minds have a hard time resting when the body is tired, but never did I have a problem of waking up through the night because that racing mind decided to start the race before the body. interesting that it has been the same or very similar dreams plaguing me right before waking, even more odd that I can remember them I could not even tell you the last time I remember even having a dream that I could remember so vividly. goes to show you that all things can trigger memories and thoughts, now I have to tear apart and figure out what is plaguing my mind so much.

3 years and not a peep

When you day starts out bad, it is hard to make it any better. So here it goes wake up at 4 in the morning with a wanting linger that I have not felt in years. That is how the day started and that is how the whole day went it did not matter what I did to get my mind to stray, it stayed on the 4 o’clock track. So you might ask 3 years of nothing, well there is no reason or rhyme to go with that. so once again we will try this. (have been lurking) My brother from another mother got married this week end, and I could not be happier for him and his now wife. Most amazing thing the two of them, would never have seen that back in 97 I will tell you that. Had a night away from the kids and lasted about an hour until I missed them, sad to not be able to make it more than an a hour.